Like 7th grade???? I don’t really remember. I never really Found Guys that attractive but I tried to force myself to think so and like them. I use to think of a guy and Say I liked them, then do things like you would do if you had a crush on the person, Doodle their name, talk about them constantly etc. I’ve always found girls fascinating though, and I acknowledged what being Gay/lesbian meant, but I thought that was me. I never really thought about it that much actually, I tried to put it off. Until I met this one girl.
She sorta helped me realize and accept myself, because I stopped caring what others thought. She brightened up my whole world. I stopped trying to force myself to be something I wasn’t, and I started to accept it.
Today has been a pretty shitty day for me. Though over all its been a pretty shitty week.
I had surgery on my foot.
I haven’t got to go to school in 2 days.
I’m on crutches.
I feel like I’m being completely ignored by my friends.
This morning. The first time I’ve gotten to go to school in two days, I fall. Like straight away I fall. I don’t even make it in through the school doors(like there’s a step up, and I thought I could make it, but I obviously couldn’t.).
Then I can’t even make it to my first class before I gave up and called my dad to pick me up.
I’m crap at crutches. I can’t crutch all the way across campus. It hurts way too much.
I managed to fall ON my foot this morning(I didn’t even tell my dad because at the time I wanted to stay at school.
So, I’ve basically been crying all morning, which makes me feel more like shit because it was in front of my friends and then I just couldn’t make it through the day.
And someone please talk to me